I never saw you as my kind,
Not quite the match I had in mind.
You came with fire, I stood with stone,
So sure I’d walk this path alone.
When you left, I breathed with ease —
No more questions, no unease.
But silence grew, and joy was thin,
A hollow world grew deep within.
To fill the void, I made my move,
Chose a love that seemed to prove:
I knew what mattered, knew my way,
A perfect match on paper lay.
I wanted intelligence, and I got that,
Sharp words and thoughts, all neat and flat.
I wanted piety, and she prayed true,
Her soul well-versed in what to do.
I wanted obedience, soft and mild,
She bowed to duty, sweet and styled.
I wanted beauty, eyes that shine,
And yes, her face could outmatch time.
But nothing fills this aching part,
No smile can mend my splintered heart.
No voice can calm the storms inside,
No touch can stem this rising tide.
Because now I see through every view —
All I ever wanted…
Was you.
You, with chaos, flame, and grace,
You, the wild I can’t replace.
Ruby, the name I once gave light,
Now haunts my dreams deep into night.